Fractured Spirituality

[Bryan]

I've always considered myself a spiritual person. I never held onto any one belief system for too long though. Sure, there were periods in my life where I thought I had everything figured out. I attached to various ideals and then tried to see life through those lenses.

That worked for a while, but about five years ago, things took an unexpected turn. I went through something. Some would call it a Dark Knight of the Soul and others would point toward some type of awakening. The truth is, I still don't know what it was, but it definitely reshaped the way I look at things and also left a bit of a mark in the process. 

The whole experience really opened my eyes and pushed me away from anything spritual for quite some time. I cracked the door open here and there, but simply didn't feel comfortable or interested. I think it's because of how long it took me to digest the idea that there are other factors at play out there most of us remain unaware of. That might sound like a bit of a stretch, but watching my daughter go through it a couple of years later really solidified my thoughts. She had no idea what I experienced and there were simply too many similarities. None of it made any logical sense, but that's a different story for a different day. Fast forward to now, we still have our moments, but we're doing better. 

This is where I'm stuck right now. About a month ago my ability to read unexpectedly came back and I started playing with my cards again. I do feel strange about it since I also read a little from the Bible each morning, but I tend to go where I'm pulled. It's just how it is. I'm not sure how I feel about my cards yet either or reading in general. I'm just being mindful of walking back down a road that leads to what I went through before.

All in all, my sense of spirituality is somewhat fractured. I'm happy to be back here, but these days I'm a nomad aimlessly wandering through life trying to find my home. I'm like The Hermit in tarot looking to spread a little bit of light along the way. I just don't know what my next step is, where my belief is, or where I'm currently being led. Right now I'm just trying to focus on family. For the rest, I suppose time will tell and I'm okay with that.

[Linda Mann]

Read what you are drown too, the same with life, we all change our lives around here and there, trauma has a lot to do with it.  And sometimes it takes years, before we start to grow again, we just exist, and hope the rest evolves naturally.   Tarot???  I like my dragon tarot and my wild animal tarot decks the best, they resonate with me more

[Arachnifauna]

 just enjoy the journey..I don't feel we are all set in stone on any one path...I feel we can evolve by learning new perspectives...yes, this is a bit challenging, but we still grow and form to our best selves in that moment.