Life Update

[Bryan]

 I’m not really sure where to start, but I need to let a few things out. I’m not one to post my issues on regular social media outlets at all, but I feel safe here. I’m a very private person and prefer to keep it that way, but what has been going on honestly has me in pretty rough shape.

About 3-4 weeks ago my son let us know that he had been experiencing a lot of abdominal cramping and back pain. He said it had been going on for a couple of months and felt like something was pushing into his back. We thought perhaps, it was the bed or the way he was sleeping because some days were better than others, but we were mistaken.  Fast forward a couple of weeks, he got himself coverage and was able to be seen. We were hoping it was something simple, but they found a mass on his tailbone and then a couple of days ago, we found out it was cancerous.

So, he has Osteosarcoma. Thankfully the mass is only about an inch in size and not much has spread at all. The doctors feel quite positive about this, and after he goes through surgery Friday, he will be going on an oral based medication to fight off the rest of it. The doctors think they can remove 90-95% with the surgery and believe the medication will take care of the rest.

But the truth is, I’m heartbroken and scared. I don’t know how to handle all of this. What do you do when you find out your own child is suffering from a disease like this? I’m trying to stay positive, but keep going back and forth. I’m fine for a while and then I break down. He’s only 25 and should not be experiencing this. I am confident he has a strength to get through it, but that doesn’t change how frightening it is.

I haven’t talked to many people about it at all and I probably won’t. I just don’t like bringing other people in. I think this situation is one of the reasons I felt pulled back to the Temple and want to bring it back to life. Some of it has to do with a strong need to keep myself busy right now, but for the first time in a long time, I actually have time to work on a few things. I just feel bad for being absent for so long.

Anyway, that’s my current story. Like I said, he has surgery Friday morning and then we will go from there. I’m going down to see him early next week, so at least I’m looking forward to that. It’ll be nice to spend some time together.

All in all, I still don’t know how to handle all of this and maintain my composure, but all I can do right now is take a lesson from him and stay as positive as possible.

[Arachnifauna]

You are very welcome. Take care 🙂 

[Bryan]

Thanks for your response and words. I really appreciate it a lot. His surgery is tomorrow morning so we are just going to go from there.

[Arachnifauna]

I am truly sorry my friend, but i feel there is a positive outcome in this situation. It will take weeks to come but he and you will be strong again in the near future. Sending lots of loving healing energies yall's way. and big hugs.

Please keep us updated as to the progress.