Tracking Changes of Self

[L. Love]

As my body changes from mother to crone, I am noticing other changes in me.  Apart from the obvious ones we all know, I am also noticing that my sensitivity is increasing to energies around me.  My empath abilities seem to be increasing also.

I find my brain tends to be off doing something more important as I laughingly say if I have my absent-minded moments...and yet, I am aware of it being busy elsewhere on other levels!

The whole irregular sleep pattern/insomnia is also increasing and as someone who always needed my 7 - 8 hours per night, am finding it a little annoying.

The main thing though is a temptation to withdraw at the moment.  I find this increasingly stronger as the energy around me changes.  I am fighting it right now as I have things to do.

Part of me finds this time in my life very exciting and I am decided last year when I turned 50, to take any opportunities that come my way.....some of the new things I have done in the past year included me getting a tattoo (finally!!), teaching three massage courses, starting a meditation group which has now kinda developed into a women's group, travelled to the USA on my own to visit a friend.  What started me off on this track?  My sister passed away just after she turned 50 - eight years ago now - and she had bad health problems so while I am active and able, am not going to be afraid anymore to try new things.  I am doing this for Gail and myself :)

Where will this lead?  Who knows but for the first time, I am like a leaf on the wind...being blown wherever the Universe chooses to take me.....and yeah, it is kinda really exciting and scary all at the same time but I feel truly alive :)

 

Just more musings.......

[L. Love]

Thank you dearest Rob.  Much appreciated and happy to know I am not going mad nor alone in this lollol ;)  You did make me laugh about 'senior moments'....youngsters like us don't have senior moments...we have internal brain-storming moments/dialogues!!!

I am realising that the withdrawal is a reason for us to possibly recharge and renew ourselves when things get a little too much.  I am trying to go with it following a discussion with others here about the whole empathy thing and focus on what I can do to help (thanks to Tyler and another Rob).  Possibly its the same with you honey.

Thanks to for sharing :)

HUGS