Ever had one of those moments when everything just snowballs out of control? Things begin to feel like you have just been involved in a 40 car pile up? Well that was me on New Years Eve. One thing after another began to go wrong and it just snowballed into a train wreck. Those I hear begin to say, "Control your anger!" So why would I have to control my anger? Oh the injustice of it all! Don't they see everything is going wrong? I mean come on.. its new years eve and everything is on a collision course! Not fair!
Well that is just what happened, hence for the really important lesson for me. The day started out normal enough except that I had to work that night. I spent time putting away the holiday decorations and cleaning up the house. Got ready for work and readied to leave. That is when the whole thing when.. *screeetch! crash and burn......* I lost my keys. In a panic I am hunting for them and I suddenly wonder if I threw them away accidentally or packed them away in the boxes of decorations! I search and search growing more panicked as time ticked away. I was going to be late! Finally after an unbearable half hour I find my keys outside in the most obvious spot on my porch. Go figure! So I grabbed my things and race out the door. Get in the car and head towards work.
Several miles down the highway I realize I forgot my phone! crap... I need that since my job depends on it constantly. So as I yelling in my car "It's not fair!" I feel my aggravation growing exponentially. Which often is a really bad thing for me. But do I listen to the voices in my head? Nooooo... I'm too busy in self wallowing to pay attention. I get back to my house and right as I rolled down my window, saying if one more thing goes wrong I'm going to snap... and right at that moment I hear *SNAP*, the window breaks, it will not roll up as the gear inside breaks. I sink into a puddle of tears and I get home.... Why me!!!! And how on earth am I going to pay to fix the window!
Needless to say I made it to work only 15 minutes late as I borrowed my ex's car. On my way, I kept hearing the soothing sounds to calm down and to remember I must control my anger. I realized that the window breaking was my fault.
I seem to have this issue.. when I get really angry or emotional... things tend to break. I don't have to touch anything they just break. Usually it's light bulbs blowing out or I short out circuits. But this time it appears my anger broke the gear box that rolls up and down the window in my car. It's an electronic, I guess it's fair game. Darn it, I really wanted to blame something else, but guides can be stubborn and point to my anger and things breaking.
So my lesson. Control my anger. It's not that I can't get angry or upset. But that I have to find a constructive outlet for that pent up frustration, since it seems I have a physical effect upon my surroundings. And then I'm left to fix what I break.
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