Soul Retrieval? Is it the answer?

[Crystal Healer]

I'm looking for anyone that may be able to guide me toward the help I believe I need. That is to say soul retrieval in particular. My story is long and I am more than happy to tell you what I know but for now. I'd like to keep this fairly short. I've lived through severe long term abuse of every type but through that also had an incredibile journey through spirituality. Through the abuse I feel that much of the person I was has been ripped from me to the very core. Dreams, visions, healing touch and so much more seems blocked. I wonder if anyone here has gone through such things or if anyone is willing to share paths they think might help. This missing part of me is truly more than I can bear and leaves me at times feeling that there is no point for my existence.

So, I am here asking for help. I am not a stupid woman just, I think lost and separated from that which is so very important to me and me feeling whole.

Love Light and Blessings to All

[0r2uqekazfd94]

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference

My actions and emotions, controllable by me,  Other People actions and emotions are controllable, by huh ?well I am not too sure? But it ain't me who controls them, no matter how much I like or dislike it!  And for all I know, I am the only person who is accountable in this realm, and the rest here are teachers for me to learn from!!!  As the lesson is who FEELS safe to copy pieces of their behavior, and who do I want to be nothing like! 

To me it is simple!  Avoid people who cross my comfort level,  As the definition of, or a piece of it is a Lady or a Gentleman: is someone who does not make others feel uncomfortable unnecessarily!  As life sometime has discomfort! But people who seem to cop major wood and like making others feel uneasy are, or sure seem like emotional vampires, and might leave victims feeling like they suck the life out of kind souls!   Remember they also do the bewitchment phase of telling someone how great they are, and get people addicted to praise!  And the games start seemingly innocent enough, but some people with white knight syndrome get drawn into the victim, rescuer, abuser triangle, when the person figures out they are being used and try to escape, they escape maneuvers are called abusive, uncaring, ect....    But emotionally uncontrolled people are all over the map with praises and complaints...  With suggestions  and advice you never asked for and get upset easily when things do not go their way

[Christine Coughlin]

Sounds familiar... :-(

[Crystal Healer]

Which part Christine, took me thirty of my 45 years to get where I am now and I still have far to go, so with the sad face left it makes me wonder what part of what's been written has touched you in some way that from where I am hurts you in some way. Could or can message me privately any time if it might be easier to talk. Open offer. ;)