The day Odin requested a meeting - a story of pain

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I was just sitting on the ether, letting the energy filter through me, adjusting the balance and holding the levels and the consciousness stable.

 

I read the energy and it fills me with sadness, as those I believed in, chose the path of pain and fear again. I sighed deeply.

 

Around me I felt the change in vibration, “Zolan… I have not seen you in a long time my friend.”

Zolan frown “How the hell do you do it Avi… I just can’t sneak up on you. I never could.”

I smiled sadly “That is a very stupid question and you know that.”

 

He threw back his head and laughed very hard “Yes that truly was.” He sat down on his surfboard, legs dangling into the ether.

 

I looked at him “So what is the reason for this visit, as your visits are never just for pleasure.”

He smiles back at me “Yes Odin ask if you would grant him an audience.”

 

I sighed deeply “What does he want…”

 

Zolan frowned “Avi, why did you not kill Odin… I mean… you have every reason and RIGHT to do it. He betrayed you and you lost your Celestial body and got stuck in this forsaken place, resorting in using human bodies. Damn it makes me angry that Odin did this.”

 

I let my eyes fall to my hands and a strangled laugh escape my lips “How can I kill Odin, for doing what he should have, even if he did not know it, and I did not remember.”

 

Zolan looked confuse “What do you mean that does not make any sense.”

 

I looked him in the eyes “Odin killed me because he…”

 

Zolan got upset “But… but, you granted his wish to be a God you helped him achieve that, and he repaid you by killing you. THAT IS SO WRONG. There is no Honor or Valor in that. It is BETRAYAL!”

 

I smiled, “Yes you are right… but he did as he was instructed to do.”

 

Zolan looked suspicious “WHAT… instructed by WHO!”

 

I smiled, “By the ones that has kept me on the path I have decided to walk, the priests of Zion. They influenced everyone to do as I instructed them to do.”

 

Zolan looked shocked “YOU instructed people to betray you. Why.. why would you do that…”

 

I sighed “No Zolan, my instructions was that I want to walk with those I created, to experience why souls fail, why they become disconnected from source, why they loose their way and never achieve their full potential. I instructed them to make it IMPOSSIBLE for me to return.”

 

Zolan sat back “By the GODS Avi… You wanted to fail!”

 

I smiled “Yes, I needed to understand the reasons souls fail, now I know.”

 

Zolan sighed “Avi, no matter what they did to you all these years, you never failed.”

 

I smiled sadly “I did Zolan...” I stood up, disconnected from everything while Zolan was trying to find a new point of argument.

 

I patted his shoulder, “It’s OK Zolan, you will understand why soon enough. Come you are welcome to stay for the meeting with Odin. I will adjust time for you if you want.”

 

Zolan minimized his board and clipped it to his belt. “There is NO way I am not going to attend now.”

 

I opened a portal and we both stepped through into the hall of Valhala.

 

Odin and Thor were there; both got up from their chairs and kneeled on one knee, fist on heart as is the tradition. I nodded and they got up. Odin stood there looking sad, Thor did not quite know what to think or feel.

 

Oden “An-Hu, I… want to thank you for sparing my life, after what I did to you. I.. am truly sorry…”

 

I held up my hand “No need to thank me Odin, I was angry when I remembered what you did, my intention was to make you pay for it. Yet, when you lay there on this table, with my knee on your chest and my black sword against your throat, I looked into your eyes and I understood.”

 

Odin’s eyes got larger, “Understood what, that I betrayed you, killed you took away your celestial body and your power, to gratify my own ambition. I am the God of wisdom and all that, but what honor and valor is there in the way I attained it. It is my greatest shame…”

 

I stopped him again, climbed up on the table and sat down crossed legged, as I always do when I come to the hall. “Sit down Odin, Thor… Zolan you too.”

 

They did as I asked and sat in their chairs, “Odin… Yes… I did help you and the others to become the Gods you are all today. It was a great pleasure to fight along all of you when I came to this place to restore the balance, back then. Yes you did betray and kill me after all I have done for all of you. I also understand how you were influenced to do that and why. I can’t judge you or take what you have from you as you have worked to earn your status as God. You did betray me, but you have done as you were instructed.”

 

Odin’s eyes fell and Thor looked confused “Wait…. Knowing you Avi… You would have ripped my father to shreds, yet you say you won’t and understood. Why… I don’t understand… what he did is unforgivable; it is against the code of honor. He is the God of wisdom, yet he betrayed the hand that guided him to be all he is. I DON’T understand… it hold no valor, no honor… it’s …” Thor was upset, really upset.

 

“I understand why you are upset Thor, but let me explain. The priests of Zion have been influencing people, events and time, to achieve the task I gave them. That day on the mountain I stood watching Babel, and watched as the veil of misunderstanding fell on the children of man, I cried as it could have been so different. For such a long time the children of Babel envied Zion. Zion was known as the root of all creation, called the city in the sky, the city of gods. Yet it was more than that. That day I walked of that mountain I made the decision to walk this path in order to learn all I can as to why souls fail, why they don’t return to source, why they turn to the darkness. I sank Zion beneath the ground and placed the guards. From there I went into the great void inside the constellation of Eridanus. I stayed there for a very long time waiting for the right time. The priests was instructed to make it IMPOSSIBLE for me to return. When I heard the call for a strong soul, I took the opportunity and went towards that call. I was born to a Echasic family, they needed a weapon, I needed to learn. Before I went the priests wiped my memories, so that I would not remember who I was.”

 

I shifted. Zolan’s eyes became larger by the minute

 

“During all the lifetimes and the path I was on I went into places no normal soul can handle. The priests did their job well, they made my life a living hell. Yes what they did to me and caused was exact, calculated and exactly into the path of what was needed. Everything I did, was guided to achieve the weaving of change into the fabric of life. This included all those that betrayed me, killed me and more. For me that did not understand why it was a living nightmare. One thing that was NOT planned was Zannando. That day as a slight girl of 16 I stood with him inside that tree hiding from Sensei and Dracus and the others, he vowed to love me for all eternity. As we stood there watching the volcano erupt in the distance, I felt alive, felt the energy of creation and destruction run trough me, I felt a glimmer of the true force of me. It scarred Zann as he understood, that to love me will hurt. It did, it hurt us both. Now as I look back at my life, I understand that all that was done to me was ultimately what I chose, and because I chose it I need to be responsible for all I did as well. I have taken responsibility for everything I ever did, even though I didn’t remember why the thing that happened to me did.”

 

Thor, “So THAT was what Gaia gave you… she gave you back the piece of you, my father took to kill you, now I see too.”

 

Odin shifted: “You also did not plan to have children An-Hu…”

 

I sighed “No… I didn’t, they made sure that I was not allowed to raise them. The two I did manage to raise, is fine. It is those I did not raise that caused me the greatest hurt. Dracus said that they were weak and would never achieve their true potential, as they can’t handle the power. It angered me as I know they were made to achieve it. I spend many lifetimes, taking bodies of people close to them to teach them, to help them be, all I know they are. Some have shown they can handle that power, and they are able to become all they were created to be. Yet there are those that won’t.”

 

I sighed deeply “Today I realized that I did not fail to return, I challenged the impossible, and made it possible. I had control over who I am, and my choices. Yet I have failed to… I failed to make those I love more than my own life, see the power of who they are. Today I admit defeat, and say to Dracus, you were right all along. Those I love, and have given EVERY opportunity I could, to be what they can be, can not handle the power they were given. NOW I understand why some souls make it and some don’t. They choose to turn away from source, only to choose failure. As all souls are linked to source through the energy they use and through soul.”

 

Odin reached out and touched me, “An-Hu, you have not failed, they can still find their way home.”

 

I sighed and wiped away a stray tear. “Odin, all happened as it should, I failed to make them feel, but I have not failed in loving them. Even if some souls turn their back on source, I can not turn my back on them, even if I have to love them from afar. One day maybe they will come to claim their power.”

 

Zolan looked at me “Avi… damn, I finally understand. Some call you a bad ass, but they don’t see the truth of the stuff you do. I have delivered so many messages regarding you in the last 5 years, if I take all of those and put them together in proper order… it’s… uncomprehendible how it fit together. While you talk my mind ran over all those the stuff you did that had people think you were insane… Damn… it was way past calculated. Every word ever action was precise, it caused the reactions needed. I… I… sure as hell don’t know how to put words to what I just saw.”

 

Zolan shook his head.

 

A commotion at the door caught every ones attention.

 

But the voices were muffled, till someone shouted “Get out of my way you dumb fuck! I WILL enter, and you WILL not stop me…” I recognized the voice and smiled.

 

“Let him pass” I shouted. The scuffling stopped and angry footsteps came closer.

 

Odin scowled and he and Thor jumped up at the same time hands on swords.

 

Odin “By the Gods, this is unheard of… HOW DARE YOU ENTER MY HALL!”

 

Zolan was angry “What is the meaning of this intrusion Seth-Tan. You never had any manners.!!!”

 

I lifted a hand and Odin and Thor held their ground.

 

Sethy was really angry it seem, as he was in Demon form and not in he usual awesomely handsome look.

 

Sethy growled “SHUT UP! You stupid wannabe surfer.”

 

“SETH-TAN!” my voice snapped like lightning.

 

“He stopped and looked at me “Well, I had to resort to this to get your DAMN attention. I even messed with your precious young and you ignored me.. I stole souls, you ignored me! I even send you message orbs and you STILL ignored me. WHAT THE HELL IS YOUR PROBLEM! Why do you IGNORE ME! What more do I need to do to get your attention. I made sure your little precious ones hurt you in so many possible ways, which was not hard to do, as their lust for power is so strong, their jealousy so delicious. Their stupid little egos are so predictable. They even believe it was not them, it was you. They believe all the little whispers I gave them. I toyed with your Zanny poo, and I tortured you with many small things…. YET you still ignore me…. WHY I want to know why!”

 

Odin, Thor and Zolans mouths were hanging open. Odin jumped up “Seth-Tan, you ingrate, HOW DARE YOU, speak to AnHu like that. It is NOT allowed….”

 

I was SO amused…. A sneaky smile on my face “Are you done throwing a tantrum.”

Sethy turned red in the face.. or is that more red “I AM NOT THROWING A TANTRUM….!”

 

He stopped, “Mmmm…. Maybe I am…. But that is not the point… why are you ignoring me?”

 

Odin and the others relaxed and sat down.

 

“Sethy sit down will you and tell me why you are this upset that I have ignored you” I asked.

 

He looked deflated “How can you ignore me, you know I need you to beat me up and keep me in line. I don’t like to see you slack in your discipline. You beating me up is the ONLY time I get to spend with you… cant you realize you are important.”

 

I looked at him in surprise “But Sethy you hate it when I beat the crap out of you. You are always complaining that I am the cause of your humiliations. You hate me and such.”

 

Sethy looked uncomfortable “Oh stop playing games dammit, you know that you coming to the lower realms and beating me up, brings energy there that we also need. That is one of the reasons I steel the souls and do the shit I do. YOU of all people know this.”

 

I started laughing; “You will regret reminding me of this soon enough.”

 

Sethy growl “Yes I know, I dislike looking like a Picasso painting, but someone has to do it.”

 

Zolan snickered “Awwww…. Sethy feels neglected, so he throws a tantrum so he will get some attention.”

 

“Sethy growled “Shut up you stupid wannabe surfer… I will….”

 

“Sethy” I asked “why did you do this, You undid all the work I did, for a little attention.”

 

Sethy looked uncomfortable, “I was jealous ok, its Reiz this and Reiz that… that idiot kid is the biggest dumb fuck I have EVER encountered. He thinks he knows it all, yet he know squat and that stupid little girl is not even worth the energy you spend on her. That ego training I put her through, just proved to me that she is NOT worthy. WHY did you not give her what she deserves…. SHE WALKED ON THE GROUND OF ZION, for FUCK sake…. She CONNED HER WAY into it. It is Sacrilege… Even I won’t do that…. THAT is one of the biggest acts of deliberate custom breaking. It is punishable by DEATH for anyone as it is the breaking of one of the oldest universal laws. A law that is there to protect the sacred right to a race… Not just any race… but ZION… she Defiled ZION, it is in excusable. SHE broke the Universal LAW, deliberately and YOU did not punish her.” He was blowing hard

 

Well… then again she loves her manipulations, and it was NOT hard to get her to sign that contract, back then. She could not have resisted even if she wanted to. You are better of without them… they just cause more trouble than they are worth… You even allowed that stupid dumb fuck Reiz beat me up, THAT is not cool and NOT allowed… Both of them are too stupid to see what you really are, and how YOU, helped them. But NOOOO…. You have to bend a knee to 2 stupid welps that think they know it all. I will not stand for that, ”

 

I frowned “You Sethy have crossed the line and you know it. But… I can’t do much about it now can I? In their eyes I am everything they labeled me with. You placed your seed of discord well. So be it. It still remains their choice, to choose the path they will take. To them I lie to myself, I guess that is true, I lied to myself to believe that they can return love, or accept me, but that is not going to happen. Through their past lives I made myself into people they could identify with in order to help those I love, I can only do that much, there come a point where you step away. This is the time to do so, to admit failure, and walk away. No matter what I do, the hate for me will always be there.”

 

Seth “Yes you are stupid to always have faith in the power of the souls; they can only be what they choose. Most is too stupid to realize how many opportunities they were given, how much was done for them to achieve all they are. All they see is how bad their life is. HOW many times will you keep reaching out to them and they keep biting you. Leave them in the lower realms, I like having them there… The more they deny you, the weaker they get, through their own choice and stupidity. They feed on the hate and the lust for power, and pull their noses up at “Love and Light” yet they don’t get it that even me need the Love and Light to be who I am.”

 

Odin started to laugh “An-Hu, you trained him well, you sure did. Even the lord of darkness realizes the power of Love. Those that think they can be without Love and light, are stupid indeed.”

 

I looked at Sethy eyes narrow. He saw the shift and jumped up from his chair, but he was too late. I hit him and I hit him hard. The blow hit the side of his face so hard it made him spin and crash into the ground.

 

I stood over him “You are out of line Sethy and you are out of your place, I suggest you get back into it… or I will slap you back into it. Is that clear?”

 

Sethy moaned, and he got up nursing his already swelling cheek. “The truth hurt… doesn’t it…”

 

Zolan was giggling “Yes, it usually hurt the teller thereof, more”

 

Sethy “No kidding”

 

I crossed my arms “You made your point now get the hell out.”

 

Sethy walked away, a smile on his face.

 

“O Sethy…” he turned back “Expect a visit soon enough”

 

His smile widened and as he walked away you could almost detect a skip in his walk.

 

I took my place on the table and sighed. “I guess he sure told me… didn’t he.”

 

Oden looked at me. “Did that girl really did that… did she take of her shoes and walked on the soil of Zion, after being warned NOT to. Is this true…!”

 

I sighed again. “Yes unfortunately… I truly allowed them too much freedom without consequences. I wanted them to succeed so badly that I started to excuse their mistakes. Guess I did lie to myself to believe that it would help them. It clearly did not. Guess Dracus was right after all. Well what is done is done, I can’t change the past, but from now, they are all just souls. Treated exactly the same. The law will be done as it always has been to anyone that steps out of it.”

 

I opened a portal and Ratziel stepped out holding a gold book. I took it from him, and leafed through it. On page 99 was written 38 names. My fingers stroke over the names, behind each of them is written Somal. One name is not written yet.

 

I removed the dagger from my belt and pricked my finger. I traced unbinding symbols around 9 of the names in the column of names. Mumbling an incantation they lifted from the page and the word Somal fell away. Ratziel handed me the book of life and I opened it, found a spot and repeated a new incitation. As the names took their place on the page I said “To those given to this book, you are no longer bound to the family or the responsibility of Somal, you no longer need to prove your claim to the family of Somal, or carry the burden of the power it hold. From this day forward you will be souls of free will, to choose the path you want, and take the responsibility therefore, as well as the consequence thereof. So it was called and so it shall be. What is done can not be undone, as is the law of Somal.”

 

Odin, Thor and Zolan removed their daggers, bowed their heads and nicked their cheeks in a show of grief, to the house of Somal. Ratziel was crying openly, and without shame.

 

I closed the book of life and lay it in Ratziels arms, took up the Golden book of Somal and looked at the crest. As I did tears fell on the crest and turned to blood. As it did the Dragone temple glowed red. All Dragone turned to the temple and roared in grief. The 8 headed Dragone statue on the top of the tower cried tears that turned to blood, as it ran off the sides of the temple all the Dragone in the realms sat down on their back legs, arched their wings and necks. The roaring stopped and silence fell on the realms. This is a day of great sadness.

 

The golden book in my hand drew the blood into it and it stained the place those names was once written.

 

“It is done…” I said and handed the book back to Ratziel. He left and the portal closed.

 

I hopped of the table and my legs almost gave way. Odin, Thor and Zolan got up and stood before me. My eyes met theirs, and the pain they saw in my eyes, hit them all hard. All 3 placed their hands on their hearts and sank to one knee. I just nodded turned and opened a portal, as I could not speak.

 

There was only one place I can be now… the portal opened and Sensei turned to me, looking confused till he saw my face.

 

I did not have to speak, for him to understand, the blood running from my eyes told its own story.

 

“OH NO…. Child… Nooo….” Then he wrapped me in his arms as I sank to the ground.

 

“Sensei,… why do love hurt so much and so deep…” I sobbed into his white robes, which are no longer white but covered in the blood of grief, only a Somal can cry. I sat in his arms crying for a long time. And as he did when I was a child after he found and raised me, he sang the Dragone peace song, while gently rocking me.

 

“I understand you grief child, and I also understand the reasons. What was done should have been done a long time ago, yet you gave all your hope to change the inevitable.” He was crying to.

 

“I failed Sensei, and I have paid dearly for this failure.” I sobbed.

 

“You have not failed child, you gave all you had and more. You are not the one that failed. Making the decision to do what must, like every time you do… always hurt you deeply. It is the time for change child, the house of Somal as first, is the one that must set the example. It is as it always has been. It is a great responsibility, which many look up to” He said still rocking me.

 

“I know, but it does not make the decisions any less painful, even though necessary. What I have done today I have tried to prevent for many lifetimes.” I sobbed.

 

“You have child, you have made many sacrifices to prevent this day, you even defied the Somal code, but it can’t be allowed to continue. You did all you could… Now all will be as it has to be.” He said.

 

Change is a difficult thing, as to change you need to die, and today I died once more.