day 1 of a Dark Gemini

[Liam Lorenzato]

i woke up just like any other day as i would normally i turn on my computer to see if i have any messages form my Girlfriend lani who lives in the states i don't know why i have a long distance relationship with a girl i met online but i hoping for the best for me and her after i talked to her on Skype i went to take a shower as any other day my younger brother takes forever in the shower so i wait and talk with lani a bit more until he gets out but i had time so i got all my things ready for school and made some breakfast then i went and had a shower like all days when i have a shower i allays think better in the shower i don’t know why i just do i get out get in what i call a school uniform as i normal do. I get out my guitar and start learning some new chords and then my mum comes when its time to go to school that’s right im a highschool student I’m in year 10 i go to Karabar highschool in Australia. As i walk to school i pull out a smoke and light it up i know smoking is bad for you but I’m always losing my mind some days and when i don’t have a smoke i eat a lot and i hate eating it's just one of my habits being a dark person yet i have friends and i think of myself as an outcast. But anyways back to what i was saying yeah i was walking to school i found a dead bird on the ground i don’t know why but it made my happy and sad do i crave death i don't know so i come to school with a dark feeling of being stuck in a pool full of darkness can i really change people say i can but i don't know what to think any more do i say this dark kid forever and kill myself or change and that point i was about to end it then i get a tap on the should it was my friend brad this guy has help me before he ask me "what’s wrong bro you alright" i said "i don't know if i can last the whole day i feel that I’m at my end" he said "If I’m still he bro that means you are to all you need to do is talk a deep breath and cram down" i said " the amount of times I’ve head that " the he said " i don't care how many times you have head it you care change" so i walked off pissed so i went behind a building and kept punching a wall it made me alive i felt better after i did that so then i went to my roll class to get marked off i leave the roll class after the bell had gone off i went to my next class which was a computer tech class i saw my x's friend Kathryn i talk to her for a bit until the teacher came to open the door /if you have read this so far the time is 9:50 at the moment so im not making this up this blog is based on my life if you want me to stop make these blogs most of you have to say stop if you want me to keep making them ill be post one every day at 8:30 pm sometimes later well then back to the blog/ im siting in the computer tech class and the teacher talking about some stuff with photo shop this goes for an hour its time for the bell to ring i everything away and get up and head to my next class which is English its a pain but i'll live i get in to class as only 4 people and a teacher me and 3 girls we are talking about sexist things boring i know i got moved it to it to a different class because 4 people in one class “yeah yeah” move in to another class now were watching easy A and writing this blog and listening to music (music helps me stay awake and focus in class) and talking to my friend josh he’s a bit of a asshole doesn't make me any better im a bit of a smart ass myself but still make up my life has be the worst thing i could of ever done that’s what makes me a dark Gemini lying for one but now I’ve been thinking i should share my life with you guys to help me get out of what i am. now it’s 10:58 am time for this class to end and time for a break i then go maybe go talk with some old friends of mine i see that they are talking to my x Jordyn i know it’s a guy’s name but she is a girl so don't get the wrong idea this girl broke my heart and made me darker on the worst day valentine’s day yeah i know it sucks but who back to that to what happened i looked at her she looked at she like she’s in to me a gen i think god you want me now i turn my head and walk away i start think should i talk the girl who broke my heart back i didn't let this worry me i went to my next class as the bell went off for the 5 time today i guess I’m going to geography i keeping thinking in that class isn't geography about maps not Australia Defence Force but anyways i know way to much stuff about the Defence Force then i thought so i guess it’s one of my best class's but anyways i still think about is this who i am a smart person or was that Liam the old me i like to refer myself as Rumia or kage the Japanese word for shadow i don't know why i feel like a shadow in someone else's life just maybe i can get out of this well time for next class the time is 12:20 i have science great i hope i can get throw this class with me done all my work this lesson yeah so yeah got a bitch of a teacher and know im talk to Jordyn great another bad time aleast im talking with her for once maybe we can be firends at least i hope to be her friend a gen that way i mite be albe to seal up my dark throughts about her yeah so back to class a work booklet yay fun its call Experimental Research Project I've done three pages boring as hell it's 1:04 pm now i fell asleep well time to pack up a gen im pretty shore you still not reading but iw would still like feed back anyways back to what i was saying yeah now its lunch you know talked with some friends said some funny stuff but it was all an act this is what the old Liam did but who care's really i don't but yeah so after lunch i went to the next class which was math "yeah yeah" i know boring but this is the class i lke the most becuase i do more work in it then most class's but yeah 5 people in the class so yeah no work i think nothing to focus on know a girl i my class just walked in with a dvd and guess what it's esay A a gen I'm getting sick of this movie watched it six times in the past 2 day and now twice today yeah so just another crap day at school but yeah waiting for the bell to go in about 9 minutes so yeah ill add more when i get home. well home ill post this early insted of what time i said ok my name is liam lorenzato and of day 1