the job hunt still isn't working so well.. prob need to apply to my expertise,,,banking. yuck. i want to work as a hospice nurse so badly. i want to spend those last moments of a person's life comforting and guiding them. i know i'm strong enough. it's people here on this site that remind me of that. self doubt is my only weakness. i'll overcome it with age i'm sure. thank you all for your guidance, it is much appreciated...enjoy this day! i say goodbye to my dear little rat today but i can…

So my depression is lifting today with the help of my boyfriend. He got me a couple books on epilepsy which is giving me more understanding on my neuro mechanics... The delusions...the psychotic seduction. It's all so fascinating. If anyone needs pointers I'm here! I'll continue to educate myself and help when i can :) ah a good day indeed.

It's a beautiful day here but my mind isn't feeling so beautiful today. I can't seem to get much done. It's frustrating my loved ones and I don't like arguments...but hell who does really. I can be sensitive...I can be stubborn...but I feel my severe depression is pretty hard to shake. People want me to just get up and in the groove...but it's just hard. Maybe I'm babying myself too much. In some other blog post, when I'm feeling more open, I'll get into previous experiences further. I…

I don't know how interesting I'll be :p but I seem to find the idea of blogging to be therapeutic...especially in an accepting environment. I'll continue to blog about my experiences in hopes of spreading hope and positivity to you all. One can make it through more than one knows. More to come from me :) Much love.