didn't ask to be born , but lost count of the times I asked to be gone.

as I tackle each day I find my defense is weak , stay strong it can only get better , its what I hear as my ego tries to swagger.

but lost in a time when things seemed fine .left my self confidence behind as time moves on still stuck in the past .

even the conspiracies I believed now seem like a farce , ive slaughtered the sheeple , tried to stay with power to the people.

but in reflection its…