WHERE DO I RUN? WHERE DO I HIDE? AGAInst ONE OF YOUR OWN's INSIDIOUS DEVICE???

[Rowena Moran]

Dear readers, 

Hi, I'm Rowena Morgan & what I want to share with you at this moment is taken from real life experiences & incidents. So I guess, everybody shares a very healthy & loving relationship with their parents, especially their mother... At least, most of you guys do. I used to believe I did too until my eyes were opened. I think I need to start at the very beginning, otherwise, all of this won't make any sense to you. 

My family's basically an average middle class & my grandparents had to work very hard to feed & educate my aunt & my dad & save every penny to build their own house which my dad would inherit eventually. Most of my relatives on my dad's side are very cultured & well-educated. My dad eventually got a good job in a bank too. All was going well until he met my mother. She was very pretty & shrewd as a young girl & she sensed very early that it'll be very easy to trap my dad in her thick web of deceit & lies. As most of the people from my dad's side ain't so blessed with good looks, she knew it'll be too easy for her to make my dad fall in love with her.  

So, unfortunately, they had a shotgun wedding & it didn't take long for them to know that they had made a huge & enormous mistake, especially my dad. And from that time & until I was born, my mother made the lives of my dad & my grandparents, A LIVING HELL...  

And my dad also couldn't blame anybody but himself for marrying a girl from an illiterate & crude family. My mother is a very skilled manipulator & smooth-talker & she convinced all the relatives & the people of our neighborhood in believing that it was she who was being abused by my dad & my grandparents not the other way around.

BUT THE TRUTH WAS, IT WAS SHE WHO WAS RAISING HELL WITHOUT ANY VALID REASON. She's so insecure & jealous that she can't stand me liking another person. She was & still is so possessive about me that she poisoned my mind against my dad & made me hate him. She had always verbally, physically & mentally abused me from my childhood. 

She always finds fault in me & call me names or she beats me up for small things. She's & always has been jealous of my dad's good & respectable background & of my grandparents' money & house. She loves to be in control of everything & everybody & has real talent in making others do her work through hurtful threats, manipulation or guilt trips. She thinks she's too perfect & always pretends to be the victim while she's the one who sends everybody running from our house. She drove my grandparents out of my house & it's because of her I didn't get the love & care of my grandparents when I needed them the most. She also drove me out of the house once & tried to stop my dad to go looking for me, but my dad didn't listen to her & brought me home again.

 I STILL HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO FIGURE OUT MY MOTHER. I DON'T KNOW WHY SHE KEEPS DOING THESE THINGS & WHAT'LL SHE ACHIEVE BY DOING THIS. I DON'T KNOW WHAT SHE WANTS... SHE LACKS EMPATHY & REALLY ENJOYS TORMENTING PEOPLE, ESPECIALLY ME & MY GRANDMA BECAUSE I LOVE HER. IS SHE A PSYCHOPATH, SOCIOPATH OR JUST A CRAZY LADY... PLEASE HELP ME OUT... ANYBODY???

 

 

[Rowena Moran]

Snodoc AND, I think you didn't read or understand my discussion very well... My mother doesn't want me to like anybody other than herself... If I do, she usually scares that person away & prevents me or that person, from interacting with one another. She beats me up for loving my grandma because I prefer to use the term "allegedly"(as my mother is a pathological liar & makes up little stories to manipulate people), according to her, my grandparents & my dad allegedly tortured her after she got married to my dad which I think, is completely untrue. Its my mother who always abuses & torments people & gets away with it.

[Saba]

My parents were all severely abusive in various ways, my mother put me through absolute hell too. I had to finally cut all ties with them all, and it 34 years to reach that point and be able to let go of the fact that it's not me, nothing is wrong with me, it's THEM> THEY failed in their jobs to us. For me, I had to accept that my mom was a poison that would continue to destroy me and hold me back in my own personal growth and ascension process. 

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[Rowena Moran]

Thats what I need to do, eventually!!! Its gonna be hard cuz she was always more involved in my life than my dad... She badmouths me enough & the last thing I need is letting her prove to other people that I'm selfish & I avoid taking responsibility of anything!